From a Distance

I once believed I had a friend. A quite jolly and quirky one, the type to light up the room, a smart and confident person. It was Spring 2023, when tables start to turn. I started to keep my distance; I still admire the person but there are things that happened which cannot be turned back. There are phases in life that will turn things around for oneself and someone you may be close with, the same goes between us. Situations sometimes flare up between the two of us. a once enthusiastic conversations become a dry and ignorant interaction. I cannot put up the reason and how exactly the situation felt to me, but it was clearly draining me, and I suppose the other person too. The smile on the person's face changed to an unmatched gloom, there was no more screams of excitement.

One summer night we coincidentally had a long talk; it was where I found out that person has developed a deep hatred towards me. I was hurt to hear what was felt towards me as for me I was questioning my entire actions of what could led to this situation. This small closure was what we both needed even if it is going to stir up certain emotions. I, in those moments had my heart broken over a friendship that did not quite flourish well. Time has passed by but still, I am certain that all the things that had happened at the time remained in the depths of us, but we have concealed with what might seem like ignorance, but I know we both are trying our best to move on.

It was at that time I found out- you can admire or love a person from a distance. Everything we did, our conversations, our Hi Byes, our little gaze and nods, even though physically near, our hearts remain distant. Because we both know that if we step any closer to each other, we may be reminded of our pasts. To see the person quite near but still unreachable, was, at the beginning difficult considering how close we used to be. However, we both thrive in our new distant worlds which made me think we are like two flowering trees that bloom better if planted at a distance or even two enzymes which accelerates when separated. But I have found the beauty in this small affair, the Diversion. We are like parallel lines who will never meet again and taking different tracks in life.

I do not feel that the reader understands our situation, but this I wish to be understood, that it is not always necessary that relationships require the persons involved to belong to each other. Instead, a relationship where two souls may not be within reach, could be one that flourishes when they maintain their distance, and rather the glue which sticks them together. Now, I have a friend, but distance is where I can be at my closest with this person. That being so, I will love this another from a distance.